Not All Who Wander Are Lost

Welcome to the World!

2008-12-11T22:05:00.003-05:00

One of my oldest, dearest friends had her first baby today!!! Layla Flynn was born in Lexington, KY at 1:50 p.m. She weighs in at 7 lbs 10 oz!!

Both Mom and baby are doing well!!!

Vegan Thanksgiving

2008-11-27T20:08:00.002-05:00

I had my first "Tofurkey" tonight and it was rather yummy actually! After working in the morning (which was quite fantastic) I came home and helped make a delicious all-vegan Thanksgiving meal with my two roommates. It was so good--tofurkey, sweet potato casserole (with toasted macadamia nuts on top), green beans, stuffing (that I made, believe it or not), cranberry sauce, mashed potatoes and salad. To finish it all off, Jen had a piece of her own delicious vegan pumpkin pie, while Juan and I shared our berry pie--he and I are not pumpkin pie eaters. I know, I know...we're weird and strange and somehow un-American or something. But I guess that's okay for him since he's not American anyway!

Off to bed after a nice relaxing bath...this has been one of the best Thanksgivings ever. Not to sound cold-hearted or unappreciative, but no family, no stress, no drama....purely divine! And I felt for the first time in a long time that I was with people on this holiday who genuinely wanted to be with me. Is there a greater feeling? I think not.

PUNKINS!!

2008-10-13T21:05:00.006-04:00

Crossing my fingers to have Saturday off so I can participate in the much-anticipated Pumpkin Festival!!

Two years ago, there were over 30,000 jack-o-lanterns displayed! I can't wait to see it. And Jen told me that if we go late enough in the evening, they give away the jack-o-lanterns! Yea for free jack-o-lanterns!!!

New Beginnings

2008-10-13T16:46:00.002-04:00

I made an observation earlier today that this particular time of the year is always quite emotional and transforming for me. Last year was a perfect storm of incidents that changed the trajectory of my life by decisions I made, for better or worse. This year I'm not so much making decisions but rather having them made for me, so to speak. Well, I do have a small choice of whether or not to fight in this particular situation, but I can't see what good it would do. Why waste energy on something you know won't happen? It's not that I am simply being pessimistic--I'm finally being realistic. I am finally waking up to how things are and coming to the "decision" of letting go. In this surrender, I hope to find strength even though right now all I can see is my own weakness.

So despite my brokenness, I vow to move forward and find the happiness that surrounds me here. This can be a much needed nudge back onto my yoga mat or encourage me to get over my fears and attend the Theology on Tap meeting Thursday night. I must learn to let go of the past, be present now, and look with hope to the future.

Work Hard Now to Play Hard Later

2008-10-07T20:02:00.003-04:00

That's been my motto this week and the only thing keeping me going is an upcoming friend's visit on Thursday. I've barely slept but it is all worth it. Tonight I have a little bit of time and I was excited to watch Bizarre Foods on Travel Channel, but it appears Jen has DVR'ed Nova's presentation of "Arctic Dinosaurs." Guess I will be getting a lesson in paleontology instead of watching some guy eat something that looks a lot like snot. I suppose I should embrace the opportunity to learn about something that I know very little about. But damn I wanted to see him eat some nasty stuff!

Tomorrow is another very very long day: up before 6, meetings, treatment, work, more meetings! WOO HOO! BUT--once the end of the day hits, I am almost there...almost to the point of having FUN and not worrying too much about everything else going on. Oh I am so excited!!!

Ahh....I almost forgot! A few weeks ago, I went to the Museum of Science and watched an IMAX presentation of "The Alps." It was about one man's desire to climb the threatening North Face of the Eiger--the same face upon which his father climbed his last. I am rather intimidated by IMAX theatres in general--don't know why really. It might be the rather slanty, tiny steps going up or the dramatic pitch that one is seated upon. Whatever it is, it gave me some sense as to the real height and feeling that one might have while mountain climbing and it provided me the insight to make this decision: there is no mountain climbing for me! Kilimanjaro is one thing--but Everest or Annapurna--no thank you! Clinging from teeny tiny rocks that you pray don't detach suddenly from the mother rock--not really my cup of tea. I like to think of myself as adventurous, but not in that way. Maybe if I'd started at a young age...but for now, I think I will keep my feet on the ground.

Speaking of Kilimanjaro: An ex-CIA agent died only 20 feet from the summit of the great African mountain on Sept. 19. Nauru passed on this piece of information hoping to deter me from setting this as my "Turning 30" goal. Not sure if it's worked yet or not...probably not, because I just can't come up with anything else that really says "DAMN IT I'M 30!!"

On another sad note, it's been exactly one month since Jim died. I still have mixed feelings about it and have only had a few nightmares to accompany these intense unfamiliar emotions. Saturday would have been my mom and Jim's 11th wedding anniversary. Please continue to pray for my mom--she's still quite a mess.

Well, I guess that's the report from the getting-colder-by-the-day Northeast! Probably won't be around much since tomorrow will be crazy and then my little buddy arrives Thursday morning! Whoop whoop! I imagine there will be LOTS of eating, drinking, walking, talking and partying this weekend! It's also B's birthday, so it is totally party time...and I am ready!

Friday Fun

2008-10-03T10:05:00.006-04:00

One more week finished...whew! It's been a ridiculously crazy and busy week and I am glad it's almost over. Just finished with my class for the morning and now I'm headed to treatment. Sounds like fun, doesn't it? I assure you, it is not. However, it IS Friday so that is a good thing. No more treatment until Monday--feels like a mini-vacation.

After treatment it's back to the j-o-b for (more) paperwork. They are well aware of my complete situation and assured me I wouldn't be there too long today. So we'll see how they are at keeping promises! I'm also hopeful they won't ask me to come in tomorrow so I can perhaps make a trip to get some necessities for the new bedroom. Things like a bed, a dresser, a nightstand...you know, important things.

If I do have the day free tomorrow, one of my new roomies and I are going to have breakfast/brunch at this tiiiiiiiiiiny little place just a block away, Mike and Patty's. It looks really cute and from what I've heard the food is quite fresh and delicious.

AND tomorrow there is a book sale at the Boston Public Library which I would LOVE to peruse. So much I want and need to do, and I am beyond annoyed that I can't make any solid plans yet because I don't know what the work situation is going to be. Patience, patience, patience. I keep reminding myself (and having others help remind me as well) that everything will work out...just be patient, damn it!! :-)

First Night...

2008-09-28T23:04:00.003-04:00

I'm in my new apartment!! It was really sad when L & B finished helping me move my fourteen boxes to my room and then turned to walk out the door! You would have thought we'd never see each other again the way we acted! :) It was so great staying with them and I know that having my own room and them regaining control of their living room are good things, but we had so much fun. I haven't laughed so continuously in a long time....the laughter felt good.

So tonight I barely did anything to make the room feel like "home." I have major purchases to make in the upcoming week (like a bed, a dresser, etc) and can't wait to search through the Scandanavian Designs (which are really smart solutions for small spaces!) next weekend. I have a lot to do, but don't feel the need to have it "perfect" by tomorrow.

I'm quite exhausted, so I think I am going to hit the hay. Tomorrow is a private yoga practice with Elizabeth which I am quite excited about. I'm anxious to enrich and deepen my practice in every way possible. I think it will be a good afternoon.

Well, I am off to bed!

Can I Get a WHOOP WHOOP

2008-09-25T21:17:00.004-04:00

So things are starting to turn for the better here in good ol' Beantown. Not that they were ever bad or that I once thought about leaving...but I am very happy to report that I found a job and also a fantastic, fabulous, awesome apartment! I will be working with a hotel chain that I hope will be a little more welcoming and a better fit than the last one--but I can't imagine to be any worse!
So I will be living with two people and they are both so awesome--one guy and one girl. (Don't worry, I've already had this "approved" by HD!) The apartment is in the Back Bay area of town and about four blocks away from the Public Gardens and Boston Common. It's an incredibly cute brownstone with a rooftop terrace boasting splendid views of downtown Boston. It's a three-block walk from work, three blocks from the T, and about a five minute walk from pubs and restaurants. On the train, it's about 25 minutes to Cambridge, not bad at all!
In addition to those two wonderful pieces of the puzzle, I am settling in quite nicely at a yoga studio in Cambridge, Karma, which offers an Anusara class seven times a week. The minute I stepped onto my mat I felt at home. And this is a TRUE Anusara class complete with chanting the invocation at the beginning! Simply incredible.
Not once did I feel this sort of peace in DC. Even in the few weeks I've been here, I've never felt alone in spite of knowing fewer people. Walking around this city I feel as if I am a part of it and this is where I am truly meant to be.
And I must say that is the BEST THING ON EARTH to be back with the best girlfriend a girl could ever ask for. Staying with her it's been like the summer after our sophomore year all over again, minus the South Americans, the too-strong margaritas and the Tuna Helper! While our time together hasn't been as ridiculous and crazy as before (or as detrimental to our waistlines), it's been better than I ever could have imagined. I am so grateful for her friendship, as well as that of her beau, and I love them both so very much. Being back in the same city is AWESOME!
Tomorrow is FRIII-DAAAY (thank you M!) and I'm ready for the weekend. I'm thinking it's going to be one helluva time.
(OH! AND the best part of my day was finding out that one of my favorite people on the planet is coming to visit in just three weeks!! YAY!!!!!)

Yogis Unite!

2008-09-24T17:11:00.003-04:00

This is a message from one of my new yoga instructors:
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I am offering all the proceeds of ALL of my yoga classes for the rest of September to the Obama Campaign. As lovers of Peace in Action, and as workers for Social Justice, we must rock this vote and elect Obama. There is, simply, no time to waste. Please come to class, (see website address with schedule below) talk to your friends and neighbors, campaign in your communities and in other regions, go to Move On.org gatherings, make phone calls, spread the truth about Sarah Palin...we cannot be silent, thinking our words and actions don't matter. They do, more than ever.
In Peace, for Justice, for Obama,
Elizabeth
-- for Wisdom, the Earth, Peace & POSSIBILITY, vote OBAMA!
http://www.steepedingrace.com/

STRESSED OUT!!!!!!

2008-09-16T18:31:00.000-04:00

Enough said......

Welcome to the North!

2008-09-11T08:33:00.002-04:00

Got up this morning and it's 57 degrees...

That may not sound cold to you, but for me that is a wee bit chilly. I think it's safe to say once I find a place to live I can safely put away those shorts and t-shirts for quite awhile. Ugh...now to find an apartment! Wish me luck!!

R.I.P

2008-09-07T14:04:00.004-04:00

I came to Lexington, KY on Friday afternoon for a friend's wedding only to get a panicked phone call from my mom while I was waiting in the airport. My step-father has been ill for awhile and his condition worsened over the past week without him or my mom really knowing. Friday morning he was seriously ill and had to be taken to the hospital.

His heart failed and he slipped into a deep coma early Friday morning and he continued to rapidly deteriorate thereafter. My mom called me yesterday afternoon to tell me that Jim had passed at 2:15 p.m.

It's been one of the hardest weekends of my life--trying to balance the happiness of a friend's wedding and the pain of losing someone. Although Jim and I certainly had our differences, I never hated him as a person and it makes me sad to know that my mom is hurting so deeply. She's the strongest person I know and I have confidence she will get through all of this with so much grace. Right now she's okay--but what can you really expect?

So I ask for prayers of strength and peace for my mom, mainly. Thank God for my grandfather who has been here through it all and is the rock of the family. Without him, we'd all be a little more lost. We've made arrangements for a small service and gathering of friends and family for Tuesday night here in Lexington, which is what mom wanted--nothing fancy, nothing formal--just friends getting together to celebrate Jim's life.

I pray for the repose of Jim's soul and that he may be in heaven free from pain.

R.I.P. I love you.

Visting for a Bit

2008-09-02T19:45:00.002-04:00

I'm back in Columbia for a short time visiting some friends and finalizing my moving arrangements. I'm happy to be spending time with friends and relaxing before things really take off and I hardly have time to sleep. I'm really excited about next week and am ready for a sense of putting roots down and feeling a bit more grounded. With my vata dosha, being so transitory isn't beneficial to my well-being. In attempt to reconcile my doshic imbalance, I am headed to yoga tomorrow morning with my wonderful, beautiful instructor who I cannot wait to see!

I thought I would have a larger sense of "home" when I arrived in town last night, but having no apartment and no job here really dispelled that feeling immediately. There are parts of this town that I do miss significantly, but I've woken up today to the fact that this is just not the place for me anymore. And the friendships that are the most precious to me will survive the distance and perhaps even flourish because of it--I've had it happen before, so who knows.

My soul is very conflicted, confused, restless now. All I can do is breathe and pray and utter that small but powerful mantra, "Jesus, I trust You."

Pray for the Church in India!

2008-08-27T10:27:00.001-04:00

Tragedy Strikes India

Bukowski's and the Beach

2008-08-17T09:21:00.004-04:00

I haven't posted for a bit because I had such a wonderful, fabulous AMAZING time in Boston that I didn't have too much extra time and not much else has really happened since then that's interesting.

Boston was incredible--from the sights, eats, and friends--I never wanted to leave. Luckily I will be back there in just about three weeks, so life is good (in that respect)! I am so anxious to leave DC and start a whole new life in a city that I really love. Although there are a few stressors involved (e.g. finding a place to live) I'm sure it will all work out...somehow. The week was so much fun and it was refreshing and uplifting to see two of the most wonderful people in the world. I needed that more than I can say! So thanks again for putting me up (or putting up with me), I had the greatest three days of my summer. We spent our time catching up, eating (try the chili dogs at Bukowskis), drinking a few (pink) pints and doing some of the touristy stuff. And just so you know, B, I had another pink pint while at the beach...this one is what they called a "Dirty Ho." It's a Hooegarden with a shot of the Lambic's Framboise...mmmm....tasty!!!!!! I highly recommend it despite its rather girlish pigmentation.

Back to DC on Friday night for dinner with Nauru at a wonderful Lebanese place just down the street. The lamb kabob was to die for! To bed early Friday evening in preparation for a long day at the beach with friends.

Having never been to a beach north of oh, Wilmington, NC, I was in for a big surprise. The water is FREEZING UP HERE! We drove four hours, sat in traffic for most of that, to get to an overcrowded, touristy beach in Delaware. The day was perfect though, not a cloud in the sky and the sometimes-a-blessing, sometimes-a-curse wind from the ocean blowing just enough. We found a spot and then ventured into the water. The waves were huge and a lot of fun and it was enjoyable to sit and relax on a beach and do a lot of nothing.

Now that I am back in DC for the next two weeks or so, I have to start making moving arrangements, travel plans and start that wonderful packing process once again. I can't believe how quickly the summer has passed! For many reasons, it will be bittersweet to leave here, but ultimately the best thing for me. I'm looking forward to starting anew and building something out of nothing. And believe me, right now I have nothing and I expect to have even less by the time I leave for Boston. Though the pain will be real, it is inevitable and ultimately for the best.

Alrighty, off to Mass!!

Beantown Bound!

2008-08-11T08:52:00.002-04:00

Only 6 more hours of work (approximately) and then I have 5 glorious days off and a trip to Boston!!! I am so excited to be getting out of DC for a bit and spend time with one of my absolute best friends and favorite people on Earth!

After the escape to Cambridge/Boston, it's back to DC for Friday night then Nauru and some friends are taking me to the beautiful beaches of Delaware!! I've never been to a beach north of Wilmington, North Carolina, so this should be fantastic.

Nada

2008-08-04T20:43:00.002-04:00

Not much is going on in my world. Didn't go to Hershey Park last week due to some "miscommunication" between parties. So I spent the day at the National Gallery of Art and had a really wonderful time with Renoir, Monet, Van Gogh, Picasso and a few of my other favorites. I had never been and it was a good idea to do something different and expand my world a bit more. This week with a day off, I plan to kayak on the Potomac. Again, something I wouldn't normally do but I feel I should take advantage of this city as my days are dwindling.

Speaking of time winding down, I have about 27 days left here (well, if you count next week's trip to Beantown then I only have 24 days left). I have mixed feelings for leaving for various reasons, but for the most part I am ready. 24 days is nothing. I can do that standing on my head. I can't believe the summer is already almost over. Time flies when you're 27.

Fun in the Sun

2008-07-28T12:36:00.002-04:00

I have Tuesday and Wednesday off from work and one of the (nice) people I work with invited me to go to Hershey Park on Wednesday in celebration of his birthday! I've not been to an amusement park in years, and I am a little unsure if my stomach will be able to handle the rides. This means a trip to the drug store to stock up on Dramamine before jumping in the car! I might fall asleep on one of the rides, but I think that's better than puking on someone I don't know all that well. Although, it would probably bring us closer! :)

Reunited!

2008-07-25T21:52:00.002-04:00

Mr Mei and J came up last night and we met up today for lunch. Coming up the escalator at Union Station, anticipating the coo's and purr's from MM, I was wishing the people in front of me would just move! Atop the stairs, we ran toward one another in true humiliating fashion which was conveniently caught on video by J. Now I just have to figure out how to get my hands on that camera's delete button.

We enjoyed lunch at a nearby Irish pub joined by Nauru who is (always) inevitably late. We had a great time cooing, laughing and eating. Next we tromped over to MM's old stomping grounds of 8 years ago....awwww!

I had to get going to make it back to my metro stop and get changed for work. Boo! However, I have the whole day of tomorrow and will be venturing to the National Zoo with MM, J and Nauru followed by a BBQ. Should be a delightful day. I'm looking forward to actually spending time with Nauru--with conflicting schedules for the past two weeks it will be a luxury to have the entire day together!!

Disappointed in Down Dog

2008-07-23T08:43:00.003-04:00

I've discovered that doing yoga truly makes me happy. A few people around here can attest to the fact that once I get home from a yoga class, I chatter on like a monkey in a tree. However, I am completely convinced that my happiness is directly related to the amount of yoga in which I participate. The past few days have been hard for me emotionally and I needed to do something positive to help remove me from the "samskara" I've run into. (A samskara is a Sanskrit term for "rut.")

I worked from 7-4 yesterday and then immediately left for Dupont Circle for the 5:15 Flow 1 class at Flow Yoga. This studio has received rave reviews from Yoga Journal, Washington City Paper, Body and Soul Magazine and various other sources. So I thought, "how can this be bad?" It was less than welcoming at the onset due to the door being locked and having to be buzzed in. Why would the door be locked at 5 pm? Whatever. Up the tiny purple staircase to the second floor where they have a small studio, registration desk, a few items for sale, and a waiting area. The space is cute and cramped but has won numerous awards and recognition for being green and sustainable.

Walking up the stairs one might be feel slightly clausterphobic but being up in the "public space" is so much worse. There was hardly room to turn around, let alone carry your yoga mat or remove your shoes in the appropriate location. The staff was friendly enough but not overly inviting or warm. I made my way to the Shiva studio which is on the same floor as the reception. There is a larger studio upstairs which I was anxious to see, but never made it up there.

Anyway, the class filled up with about 3 guys and 9 girls and then the instructor came in. I was disappointed from the start. She was less than friendly and brought in this aura of discontent and boredom. I understand that people have bad days and that perhaps that was her case, but if you're going to teach yoga, try to leave that stuff at the door. Try to remember why you're there and what your purpose really is. Class itself was fine. Nothing to really write home about, but it was good to be breathing intentionally and moving in a way that invigorates me. Class lasted only one hour and I was glad to be on my way to dinner.

One thing I have observed about the yoga community here in DC is the lack of community. I feel it's perceived as "the cool, trendy thing to do" and that's why most people are there. You're making a statement by walking down the street with your yoga mat casually strung across your shoulder or with the latest style of Be Present pants. And it's not the statement I am used to or the one I want to make! I think less and less of the participants here really care about the yoking of mind and body or the other positive side effects of this ancient practice.

Maybe I was spoiled beyond belief in SC (which I am learning that in many , many ways I was) by my yoga kula and other aspects of life. However, there was a real sense of community at City Yoga. I truly had the feeling that people genuinely cared about one another and the well-being of the entire cosmic oneness we share. Here it seems very isolated and impersonal, neglecting the power of unity. It is very DC. Everyone on their own path, not really caring or even considering how those paths might cross. It's very disappointing and unsettling to me. It's not what I believe yoga to be about.

So all that said, I am going to try yet ANOTHER yoga studio in DC. This one is closer to home, and I've read the testimonials so I have a smidgen of hope. By the time I find a yoga community I love, it will be time to leave DC. Oh well--I need to figure out something to keep me happy in the meantime.

Nada

2008-07-20T09:03:00.003-04:00

Not much really going on, but thought I would just check in and say hello. I have been working a lot which is good, but at times I am rather sick of the place. I am working the early shift today (after being here until close to midnight last night) but luckily have the evening and tomorrow off. Tonight's festivities include mass at Holy Trinity in Georgetown and then it's off to the Uptown for a showing of The Dark Knight. Thrilling life I lead, n'est ce pas?

Although I must say I am rather excited about a certain visitor who is arriving on Friday!!! It will be so wonderful to have a familiar face around. Think I might try to convince my friend to go to the zoo with me on Saturday if he isn't too busy. :-) I haven't been to the National Zoo and the free admission and pandas are incentive enough for me. Hopefully it won't be in the upper 90s with 80% humidity. But who knows....

This is going to be one of those times where my readers ask "why in the world is she even writing anything? There is nothing interesting going on in her life." Well, there are a few things going on, but I probably shouldn't divulge all via the blog. Overall, things are going well despite a few pangs of homesickness here and there and feeling a little like a fish out of water at work occasionally.

I have learned a few things so far:
1) Australian accents are sexy.
2) DC is hot...Columbia hot.
3) I shouldn't make tofu anymore unless I am really sure it's fresh (bad food poisoning incident).
4) Savor each moment. The summer is passing far too quickly.
5) Don't check into a hotel and ask the front desk to babysit your cat. They just won't do it.

Great

2008-07-13T20:10:00.002-04:00

So...this is my new neighborhood. Good thing I've got the mase handy at all times!

Daylight Shooting in Adams Morgan

It's Time

2008-07-05T08:20:00.003-04:00

It is a very dreary Saturday morning here in our nation's capital. I am debating whether or not to go over to work and workout for a bit and then do what I've been wanting to do since arriving in Washington: SHOP.

I think working out would be good however, my body is so sore from the previous five days of working out. Maybe I should take a break, let the muscles ease out of shock and just head for the mall.

I thought about going to Georgetown, but it's not nearly as wonderful to be shopping in Georgetown in the rain. So, in appreciation for Ma, I am heading to Pentagon City. Should be a good day.

I Am Alive

2008-07-03T13:34:00.002-04:00

So I have disappeared off the face of the blogger world, but my computer at home is acting extremely finicky and I'm really not supposed to be on here at work. Considering today has been the slowest day so far I've got some down time and just wanted to say hello.

Things are going quite well here for the most part. I have my good days and bad. Monday of this week was one of the worst days ever and I am happy to report that things have turned for the better since then. It's been a long week though and I am really looking forward to the weekend despite the rainy forecast. I will be working tomorrow, but I don't mind since I'll be getting holiday pay as well as a few hours overtime.

Weekend plans include shopping, cleaning, doing laundry, working out and maybe going to see Wall-E. Other than that, nothing much is going on but that's okay with me! Nauru comes back on Monday which is great too.

Sorry I don't have anything else really interesting to report. My friends at work are great and I've been out several times with them and had a really great time. It's been fun getting to know so many people from all over the world including Ethiopia, Kenya, China, Ireland and of course, the good ol' USA. I could listen to the two Irish people talk for ages--their accent is so incredible. And the one girl says "brilliant" about almost everything--I love it!!

Well, only a few more hours to go and then I am off to work out. One of the best perks of the job is access to the workout facility which is brand new and includes a sauna. I also found out the on-site massage therapist, Ingrid, only charges $45.00/hour. I'm definitely going to look into that!

Update...Finally!

2008-06-25T17:55:00.002-04:00

So here I am...(rather than the preferred story-telling beginning of "so there I was...")

Day Three of working for MI went very well. I like the hotel very very much and the people there are incredibly welcoming, friendly and fun. We've been having a good time and I've definitely been learning A LOT. It's an interesting transition going from a private hotel to the biggest hotel in this city! I wish it was a little more hands-on, but I know I need to be patient and learn more about the gargantuan place before being front and center.

Other than work, life is good. I've been frequenting the vinyasa yoga studio about 5 blocks from here regularly and have been enjoying it. Last night, I didn't want to stay in Adams Morgan, so I set out to Dupont and walked around a bit. It was a good idea to get out of the neighborhood and spread my wings a bit. I found the salon I'm going to tomorrow for a desperately needed haircut and also the Bikram yoga studio. I'm still a little scared of the 105 degree temperature in the room for that yoga, but I'm gonna try it. I'll never know (or grow) unless I try it! After my Dupont exploration, I found myself at the Cathderal of St. Matthew which is absolutely stunning! Mass had just ended so I went inside to pray for a bit, and was overwhelmed by the beauty of it. Talked to Gashwin for a bit and then met up with Nauru for dinner at Mexicali. It was quite delicious and, as always, good company. We hung out for awhile just talking and enjoying the gorgeous night.

Tonight I am laying low. It's been go go go! since arriving, and I am looking forward to just chillin'. Plus, getting up at 5:30 a.m. every day this week is starting to catch up with me! Tonight it's in for dinner and maybe a movie or something.

Tomorrow is work, haircut, and then who knows what. I definitely miss having my nights constantly planned out and friends always on-call (or calling me), but this is good for me. It's allowing me more time to think, pray, write, read and just BE.

Adjusting

2008-06-22T20:37:00.003-04:00

It's been a good 36 hours since arriving in DC--had a good day yesterday despite being sleep deprived and a little cranky. We got together with some friends and watched "Til the End of the World" which was interestingly good at times and horribly bad at others. It ended up being a long night and I slept quite well.

Got up this morning and tried to put some of my clothes and other stuff away without much success. All the clothes are technically unpacked now, but they're just strewn about in various locations making the task of finding something to wear close to impossible. I have a dresser coming on Tuesday, so that will make the situation much better.

Went to Mass at Holy Trinity in Georgetown today. It's a Jesuit parish (woohoo) and the priest presiding at today's Mass was great. Afterwards it was to the grocery and other errands before heading out to my first vinyasa yoga class. I was a little nervous going since I always worry about being the "new girl." However, upon arrival, I found out that I wasn't the only new person and chatted with a girl who just relocated to DC from Florida. It was a great class and really helped ease my anxiety and stress.

Tonight's early to bed because I have to be at work a little before 8. Should be a good day allowing me a better chance to feel like I'm actually living here now rather than just visiting.

Thanks to all of you who've called or sent texts or emails--I appreciate it so much!!! And as for La Madeline--sounds like a terrific idea!! Georgetown is definitely close by and that might be just a perfect way to spend a morning post-yoga and pre-work. THANKS!

Ready. Or so I think...

2008-06-20T11:54:00.002-04:00

I stopped procrastinating and got it done. This morning was a piece of cake packing up the remainder of my stuff and cleaning. I have mixed feelings at the moment about leaving, but I know that's just normal. It feels almost surreal in a sense, that it's not really happening.

It feels good to not be at the NAC and I just wish the damn sun would come out so I can go sit by the pool and enjoy my last day in Columbia! Oh well--I am sure that no matter what we decide to do it will be fun.

This social butterfly is starting to poop out

2008-06-17T10:37:00.003-04:00

As the days seem to fly by, I am realizing more and more how unprepared I am for this move. I have been prioritizing my friends (which seems like the logical thing to do) and have NOT been putting much effort into the packing, sorting, shipping, & storing process. While I have plans for tonight and each night this week and continue to work during the day, I am beginning to wonder when this packing, etc. will ever get done. I need to stop procrastinating and get to work!

So here I am at work browsing the Washington Post's "City Guide," and I stumble across the article "How to Put a Stop to Putting Things Off." How appropriate! After reading it, I realize that I need to GROW UP and stop doing what I want to do and get done what I need to do. Research suggests procrastination stems from fear--the fear of failure or success perhaps. Some of my fears are being displaced from my oh-so-comfy lifestyle and also letting my friends down before I leave. I worry so much about spending time with them and making sure they know how much I will miss them, that I neglect what needs to be done in order for this move to happen. The move is inevitable, my time is finite, and no matter how long I wait to pack, it's still going to happen. And I know that if I wait until the very last minute, I am bound to be frantic and careless and will end up forgetting who knows what!

One of the psychologists in the article asserts that procrastination is a knee-jerk reaction to discomfort and that to overcome it, it's all about revamping how you think about things, overcome inertia and manage your time better (and stop making excuses). I also think that since fear is driving my procrastination, I need to talk myself down off that ledge. I'm telling myself "My friends will still be my friends if I can't go out one night. If they don't understand the pressure I am under, then are they really my friends?" I know I need to abandon this "people pleaser" mentality and push through this anxiety. I have to "feel the fear and do it anyway."

So here's my plan:

I will accept the discomfort that I am bound to feel when I am at home this evening, having cancelled my plans and fearing that my friends interpret that as me not wanting to be with them. I am going to accept it and push through it (and hopefully realize that it's ludicrous!)
I will remove the obstacles like the computer and the phone and get to work!
I will break it up and not allow myself to become overwhelmed by the enormity of the project.

Now to put it all into action and get this stuff done! WOO HOO!

Things to Do...

2008-06-17T10:23:00.002-04:00

There are a few things that I definitely want to do when I am in DC for the summer. Some of them aren't specific to DC necessarily, but I am using this as a catalyst to try new things, live a little more and be present in each moment. Here's my list (for now) of things I want to see, do or find:
1) The National Museum of the American Indian
2) Bikram Yoga--yoga in a room heated to 105 degrees. I might puke, but that could be part of the fun!
3) Vinyasa Yoga-constantly moving in a flow-like manner with an established series of postures
4) Mass at the Basilica
5) Drag Queen brunch at Perry's
6) Meridian Hill Park-free yoga on Sunday nights, drum circle, and a cool Joan of Arc statue

Families: can't live with 'em...

2008-06-11T11:58:00.003-04:00

Most of my (9) readers know that my relationship with my family is less than perfect and more dysfunctional than anything else, especially in dealing with my mother. But there's neither enough time nor space to write about her right now.

I just told them all about my upcoming move and am preparing to deal with the raised eyebrows, harsh judgments and incessant questioning that will be soon headed my way. However, I feel extremely confident in making this decision and truly feel it is for the right reasons and at the right time. For the first time I feel comfortable enough to approach my detractors and listen to what they have to say but stay strong to still do what I feel is best. I am (finally) beginning to understand that it's MY life and the individual fulfillment I seek is up to ME, and I can't keep going around doing things to please others.

It's always been difficult for me to follow my heart because so many people have their own opinions to offer on how they feel I ought to live my life. I usually allow this to interfere with my resolve and second-guess my intentions and my goals. But with this newfound confidence and faith I am more apt to disregard unsolicited advice and simply listen to my inner voice, and bravely forge a life path that is as unique as I am.

I know my family hates change. I know they think I am off on some whim, footloose and fancy free, tromping around the world, dancing to the beat that plays only in my head. To them, I am not doing what I am "supposed" to be doing (i.e. finding a husband, settling down, having babies, working harder to climb the corporate ladder) therefore I am the "wild one" of the family. It hurts to know they don't get it or me, but in the grand scheme of things it doesn't really matter. I could wish and wish and wish upon a star but they're not going to change. And it's about loving them for who they are, faults and all. I just wish it was reciprocated.

So it's bound to be an interesting (to say the least) few days with the phone calls coming in and eventually having to tell the one person who hasn't yet been informed: mother. She's going to be LESS than thrilled for reasons I'll never begin to even hypothesize about, let alone understand. Things between she and I are horrendously bad at the moment, so this is going to probably put the nail in that coffin. But what am I supposed to do? I can't live in Columbia and work at the N for the rest of my life just because it makes her happy. The best thing I can do is be honest with her and let the chips fall as they may.

(Disclaimer: This broad generalization of my family does not include each and every person. There are a few who are the greatest supporters in whatever I decide to do, love me unconditionally, and exhibit true happiness for me. Disclaimer II: Only one or two people in the family know about the blog, so this should be safe. If not, oh well. Maybe it's time the cat got out of the bag.)

SO COOL

2008-06-11T09:51:00.002-04:00

Mags is at a conference and had the pleasure of meeting Terry O'Connor who was on the medical team of the Discovery Channel's Everest Expedition. She said his lecture was fantastic and they talked for quite some time afterwards. I'm so jealous she got to meet him!!!

KARAOKE!

2008-06-09T19:45:00.001-04:00

Several pictures from Switzerland were sent my way from the newlyweds and this was one of my favorites! I believe this was during "Baby Got Back" but I can't exactly remember. :)

New Beginnings

2008-06-08T21:33:00.003-04:00

I've been in Washington, DC for the weekend for a wonderful job opportunity in the area. I went into the interview today feeling confident and well-prepared (thanks Nauru) and I landed the job. It's a Front Office Manager position with Marriott and I feel confident in accepting this position.

Although it's a huge change and one that will come sooner before later, I feel that this is a great fit, a wonderful opportunity and something that isn't to be passed up. I will be leaving Columbia in less than 2 weeks and the sentimental part of me can't believe that chapter of my life is over. However, I understand that times change, people change and that this is something I really need to do for myself. It's been awhile since I've done something for myself so I am thrilled at this chance.

So when I get back into town (Monday evening around 7) let's get together and have some fun!

Home!

2008-05-30T11:49:00.002-04:00

Back into the swing of things at home. Life has been a little disrupted as of late, and I am more frantic than ever. My main goal right now is to get some sleep and then start making decisions.

Up Up and Awaaaaaayyyyyyyy!!!!

2008-05-27T12:21:00.003-04:00

A friends' take-off on her paragliding adventure!

Special Pic

2008-05-27T11:24:00.002-04:00

There is a small park in Bruges with four statues representing the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse. Although they weren't labeled, this one seemed most like Pestilence...so I send this out to my favorite car in the world.

Mountains

2008-05-27T09:10:00.001-04:00

Along the bike route from Interlaken to Lauterbrunnen

A bird's eye view of Interlaken

Pics

2008-05-27T08:59:00.003-04:00

The Eiger

Ceremony
Speed Racer

The Alps

The girls having a little bit of fun

Homeward Bound

2008-05-27T08:54:00.003-04:00

After my 21-hour day yesterday and not much sleep last night, I am quite exhausted and ready to be home. I've got an eleven hour train ride to look forward to this afternoon, arriving in the capital of the Palmetto state around 2:00 a.m. This has been a whirlwind of activities over the past ten days and I am looking forward to some peace and quiet when I get home.

And for those of you who have been patiently awaiting the humiliating information, here it goes:

1) Spice Girls' "Wanna Be"
2) Divinyls "I Touch Myself"
3) Cindy Lauper "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun"

(I had conveniently forgotten about the last one until so kindly reminded by my singing partner.) Thankfully no videos were taken of me singing either!!!

I Am Still Alive!

2008-05-26T02:37:00.003-04:00

Per the advice of my bro, I didn't chicken out. I went for it and am soooo glad I did. I "manned up" (sometimes that 97% comes in handy) and went paragliding in the mountains of Interlaken yesterday. I was a little nervous on the way up the mountain and the 'pilots' were teasing me a little bit. We got to the top of this mountain, which had a grassy slope that I was told we'd be running down and eventually off of. Um..yeah. My stomach isn't the most stable of organs and I was a little worried about puking on my poor pilot. Even though he sat behind me, I was sure I'd find some incredibly graceful way to spew on him. Knowing this about myself, I took two Dramamine in hopes to prevent any motion sickness.

Standing atop the grassy knoll, some hang gliders took off before me and I was beginning to get a wee bit nervous. My pilot, Saul (I think) said "Okay, you ready?" in this beautifully thick Bulgarian accent and I thought "oh goodness, can't back out now." So then he said "4, 3, 2, 1--Run Run Run!" And I ran and ran and ran toward the edge of this cliff until my feet left the ground, the parachute opened above me, and we were airborne! It was the single most exhilarating feeling I've ever had--now I sort of understand why people jump out of airplanes. It was incredibly peaceful and beautiful, and I got some great pictures of the city from above. And I got to see the Eiger once again in all its majesty. Quite amazing! And better yet, I lived to tell about all of it!

Now I am in the airport awaiting our flight back to D.C. I have mixed feelings about coming home: in one way, I never wanted to leave Switzerland because it was so beautiful and the people were so nice (although it was insanely expensive and I'd have to sell both kidneys in order to live); but I am ready to see my friends and hang out and return to normalcy for a bit. Enjoy the pictures and yes, yes, I know I look like Speed Racer in the paragliding get up. Don't be jealous! HA!

(Alright, the computer is being weird and won't let me upload any photos. I will try again later possibly or tonight when I get back to the States!)

Bruges

2008-05-25T04:28:00.002-04:00

This was actually taken in Brussels. The "hidden camera" show of some sort with the guys dressed up like bowling pins. Odd.

Gorgeous church in Bruges (can't remember the name right now--oops!)

Center square in Bruges.

Canals

OH MY GOD, Like there's an ATM!

2008-05-25T04:27:00.000-04:00

Wedding Bells

2008-05-25T04:13:00.003-04:00

The weather was beyond perfect last night for the outdoor ceremony by the lake. And the wedding did start on time because every church in a 5-mile radius was ringing its bells as K walked down the aisle. Passers-by were stopping and taking pictures and I usually don't cry at weddings but this one got me. What got me was this: everything was simply perfect (the day, her dress, everything) and you can tell that these two people really love each other in the most selfless of ways. When he began reciting his vows, he couldn't even get them out. I've been to a fair amount of weddings, and it's usually the woman who's blubbering and snotting all over the place. She, of course, had tears streaming down her face, but he was so choked up and overcome with emotion, I couldn't help but be moved.

Afterwards we spent the evening at The Swiss House enjoying great company and even better food. (I did break my no-meat policy because I had pre-ordered the rack of lamb. Oh well, we can't be perfect all the time.) Last night was much calmer and more subdued than Friday evening. As you might imagine, we were all still pretty wiped out from Friday night, so sitting around and just talking was a wonderful way to spend the evening.

Today, I am up and moving slowly toward getting ready. I am really unsure about this "adventure." I've been told not to punk out by one of my elder bros, and I should probably heed that advice. You only live once, right? And it's not like I'll be jumping out of an airplane, although that was discussed! In all likelihood my little escapade will be a great story to tell (I mean, who doesn't love a good puke story) and I will be glad I did it.

And I PROMISE to get some pics up soon...it's just been crazy lately.

I GOT TO SEE THE EIGER!

2008-05-24T08:41:00.002-04:00

Yesterday morning we all hopped on bikes and travelled about 8 miles from Interlaken to Lauterbrunnen. It took us about 2 hours because we stopped almost every 100 yards to take pictures or just awe at the scenery. It was simply unbelievable and I have about 150 pictures to prove it. And let me just say that this biking was MOUNTAIN biking. Trails made of gravel and dirt comprised the majority of the trip and as we travelled toward Lauterbrunnen, the grade continually rose. (Lauterbrunnen is about 2,000 feet above Interlaken.) Needless to say, the ride back was a breeze!

We arrived in Lauterbrunnen just before 1 and had lunch at some little (overpriced) cafe with the Eiger rising behind me. Waterfalls and giant peaks littered the surroundings and I felt so relaxed there, despite pure exhaustion from the ride. The Eiger is majestic (even though that sounds so trite) and incredibly impressive.

After we returned the bikes, we sat at a little cafe for a drink with every other American in Interlaken. No, I take that back. We sat at the cafe with every spoiled, rich Americano frat boy and sorority girl in Interlaken. Ugh, it was nauseating. Amusing but nauseating.

We got in the car and drove to Lucerne, where I am now sitting in my hotel room blogging. We arrived later than expected yesterday and had to rush to get ready and make it to dinner by 7. We met up with the rest of the group and the bride and groom, of course, and had a lovely dinner. Then, much to my dismay, someone had the idea that we should all go sing karaoke. Trudging over to the bar down the street, a couple of the guys started out the night with Roxanne, and it only got weirder from there. One guy sang "I'm A Barbie Girl" and it was HYSTERICAL! I almost peed my pants it was so great. Somehow I was roped into performing with the girls (thank God it was a group effort) but I will leave out details. Then, after a few more beers (and a shot of Vodka) I decided to do a duet which turned out to be a lot of fun, but I hope to erase that from my mind very soon! Again, I won't be giving out song titles for fear of being mocked for the rest of my existence.

At 2:00 a.m., the bartender gave us the "you don't have to go home, but you can't stay here" speech, so the girls went one way and the guys went the other. Venturing back to one of the hotels (we're all in various locales), we tried to go to the bar but they were closed as well. We ran into some rich, snotty, 18-year old American boys who are in Switzerland finishing high school and they offered us some of their champagne. So we enjoyed their company for about twenty minutes and decided it was time to go. After that, we just hung out and talked and laughed and K enjoyed her last night as a "free woman."

Tonight is the wedding (5:30 p.m.) and then out for more partying. Tomorrow we're up early to drive back to Interlaken for an adventure. This was an unplanned adventure and I am a little hesitant, but have been talked in to it by everyone else. I'll let you know what it is tomorrow (or Monday) if I go through with it. I've already sort of committed, but we'll see. After the adventure, it's in the car for a long drive to Weisbaden with a stop in Heidelberg. Monday it's up early to drive to Frankfurt and come home!

Brussels to Interlaken, Switzerland

2008-05-22T14:25:00.002-04:00

This is going to be brief because we're about to head out for dinner shortly. However, let me just tell you that somehow Google Maps got it ALL wrong. Doing a little research, I determined our journey via car would take about 6 1/2-7 hours from Brussels to Interlaken, Switzerland. We started out great, retracing our route back to Aaachen, Germany and then turned south toward Heidelberg and Stuttgart. We were all really excited and having a great time, playing stupid alphabet games (is there a female's name that starts with a "Q?") and watching the lush green meadows pass us by.

Entering Switzerland we stopped to get a Swiss autobahn pass and then proceeded south through Basel and on toward Bern. This is when it began to get a little tricky. It seemed as if our lovely navigation system was taking us through all the towns possible. I mean, aren't there major highways that bypass cities like in the U.S.? Well, not really knowing where we were or what we were doing or how to operate the nifty navigation system, we trudged on like good little soldiers. I think we circled about 400 round-abouts in various towns and cities. All of them are completely charming, and smelled of goats and cows. (Contrary to others' opinions, this made me want to get out and find some cheese.) After passing through like sixteen of these wonderful olfactory delights, I began to wonder just how much longer those pesky 80 miles were going to take. Yea, quite awhile. Instead of our trip taking 7 hours, it was more like 11. Needless to say, upon arrival the excitement and giddy-ness of the earlier hours had dissipated.

But, I must say that Switzerland's countryside is breathtaking. As we got closer to Interlaken, the Alps slowly emerged from their sleep in the clouds. Snow upon their peaks, I was enthralled and captivated by them. One of the most popular things to do in this area is to climb to the top of one of these giants and paraglide down. We thought about it...and then thought that it's probably not a good way to go.

Well, we're off to eat dinner now. Tomorrow morning is up early again for biking. More later!

Brussels and In Bruges

2008-05-21T16:30:00.003-04:00

Rather than just give you a run-down of today's events like some boring itinerary, I will actually regale you with a few stories complete with emotions. :)

We began the day around 1:30--yes, I know that's rather late, but jet-lag is a terribly hideous thing and caused me to sleep until about noon. Once up, we walked over to the area of Brussels known as Le Sablon (don't ask me what it means because I do not know at this moment.) There, we ventured into the Church of Our Lady which is home to healing saints and statues. It was beautiful but simpler than yesterday's cathedral. Here I prayed in front of the Blessed Sacrament for some time and felt a true sense of peace come over me.

From here, we ventured up and down the streets of Le Sablon wandering in and out of antique shops and had some lunch. At the cafe, there was some sort of "Hidden Camera" TV show being filmed in the alley behind me. Two guys dressed as bowling pins were hiding behind this black curtain and whenever someone would walk up the alley, the guys would come out and grab the person's arms. Another guy further up the alley would roll this gigantic bowling ball toward the three-some, and then the bowling pins would fall down! It was hysterical!

Off to Bruges! Unfortunately, no midgets (oops, dwarfs) were spotted and no one tumbled to their death from the bell tower. However, it was a gorgeous, sunny day and the town looked as charming as ever. I think we scoured the entire city, but my favorite place of all was the Chapel of the Holy Blood. It is said that this church contains a piece of cloth gathered by Joseph of Arimathea that has a few droplets of Jesus' blood upon it. It is also said that this dried blood turned to liquid quite frequently until the 15th Century when the miracle ceased. I was moved beyond words and knelt in front of this piece of cloth (although there were no kneelers) in complete and utter awe. I felt so close to God, but didn't feel worthy to be there at all.

After that, we walked around for a few more hours and then drove back to Brussels. Tonight I've got to get to bed so I can get up early tomorrow. We drive to Interlaken (about 6 hours from here) to the Swiss Alps. I am so excited to see the Eiger, but am less than excited about the car trip. Oh well, gotta take the good with the bad, n'est ce pas? Oui!

Update tomorrow night, hopefully!

A Few More Pictures

2008-05-21T07:12:00.003-04:00

Statues on the side of the Palais Royal in the Grand Place

Took a brief respite on the steps outside of St. Michel & Gudule. Reclining, I took this picture.
Detail of St. Catherine's

"Jesus Paradise" a Cocktail Bar. Hmmm...

Brussels Day 1/2

2008-05-20T15:53:00.003-04:00

I can't call it Day One simply because we didn't spend the whole day here; however, it's been a glorious evening filled with lots of frites and exploring.

After a brief catnap to revitalize a bit, we headed off for the Grand Place. We wandered up and down various cobblestone streets and gauked at numerous stores with displays of chocolate fit for a king. I saw a fountain of chocolate and while I was ready to throw a rock through the window to get to it, others said it looked almost gross. Please tell me how milk chocolate flowing is gross! Maybe they've watched Augustus Gloop fall in one too many times. Anyway...we finally made it to the Grand Place which is home to many beautiful buildings, cafes, markets, and shops.

We strode through the Galleries which includes more shops carrying delicious Belgian chocolates and expensive chic clothing. Upon exiting, I looked up and saw the bell tower of a cathedral and insisted we head over "that way." We turned from behind a building and there stood a beautiful Gothic cathedral, La Cathedrale des Sts. Michel et Gudule. It was simply breathtaking. I went inside to pray (and listen to the organist tune the massive piped instrument) and to take a look around. The church is named after the male and female patron saints of Brussels, and while Michel is more well-known, Gudule is more popular in town. Gudule's symbol is that of a lamp, said to have been extinguished by the devil, but was relit when she prayed. The church has undergone several serious renovations due to the Protestants and the French attacking her and her relics.

Onward back to the Grand Place, we stopped for some frites (YUM!) and relaxed a bit. We meandered through the streets, headed back toward our hotel when we stumbled upon Saint Catherine's, a neo-Gothic church constructed in 1854. It is dilapidated beyond belief, but is home to a 15th Century statue of a Black Madonna said to have been rescued from the Senne after being thrown in by angry Protestants. Unfortunately, by the time we got there, it was too late to go inside and see the statue. Maybe tomorrow.

After that, it was back to the hotel. We're calling it a relatively early evening (it's 10:05 now and finally dark) so we have more energy for a full day tomorrow. Tomorrow's plan is to head back out into Brussels until mid-afternoon and then drive about an hour to Bruges.

Cathedrale des Saintes Michel et Gudule

Grand Place

Baptismal font inside Cathedral

A view from behind the High Altar

Saint Catherine's

UPDATE

2008-05-20T10:29:00.001-04:00

Alright, so I was kindly reminded that I WAS, in fact, told about having to pay to pee. My response to the information at the time was "Well, the rest stops better be nice if I have to pay." Guess I am getting old and forgetful!

I hate it when I'm wrong...(and especially when he's right!) :-)

Guten Tag, Goedemorgen, and Bonjour!

2008-05-20T07:38:00.003-04:00

The first time I ever heard of the Autobahn, I was intrigued: BMWs and Audis speeding around corners as fast as they desired. Well, today I had my first opportunity to experience the speed, the chaos and the thrill of the Autobahn. We landed in Frankfurt about on time at 7:20 a.m. (that's 1:20 a.m. for you East Coasters), where I first experienced the well-oiled machine that is Germany.

We were seated in row 59 (of 60) on the plane, so I didn't even unbuckle my seatbelt when the plane arrived at the gate. We'd been sitting for seven plus hours, what's another thirty minutes, right? Well, then I felt this huge rush of cold air at my back and lo and behold--they opened the rear door! I didn't think those doors actually opened! :) We rapidly gathered our belongings, deplaned and headed for passport control. We eventually made our way to the baggage claim and then to Hertz for our rental. Much to the dismay of several people, we didn't get a BMW or an Audi...instead we are driving around in a sporty 4-door Renault Laguna. But it does have navigation which is incredibly helpful when not one person in the car has ever driven in Europe!

The beginning of the drive was good...a little giddy from sleep deprivation, we managed to stay focused and enjoy the beautiful country that was unfolding around us. The grass seems greener here, but maybe it's just me. Rolling hills with little town nestled in their valleys lined the Autobahn and I was captivated by its magic.

Herr D had told me about the impeccable cleanliness of the rest stops along the Autobahn, and he is indeed correct. (Although he did forget to tell me it would cost me .50 euros to use said facilities!) After stopping once, we jumped back on the road and cruised at ungodly speeds toward Belgium.

Noticing a sign that said something like "Wilkommen Neiderland" I decided to take a look at the map. Yes, we had in fact crossed into the Netherlands! We were in Holland for about 50 miles or so (at this point, I was beginning to lose focus and drift in and out of sleep.) The countryside looks quite similar to that of Germany (go figure) but was beautiful nonetheless. One particular moment looked like something you'd stop to take a picture of and stick on a postcard--simply gorgeous.

We arrived into Belgium and soon thereafter entered the city of Brussels. We found our hotel instantly (thank you British speaking GPS lady) and are now settled in and ready for a quick rejeuvenating siesta. After our naps, we're headed out to see the town and eat some pomme frites--with mayo, OF COURSE!

So, in the past 17 hours, I have been in 4 countries. Weird. Cool. Exhausting! More soon!

Leavin' on a Jet Plane

2008-05-19T10:00:00.003-04:00

My bags are packed. I'm ready to go.

Not too much longer then we're headed to Dulles for our (long) flight to Frankfurt. But to be honest, after a 14 hour trip to New Delhi, and the 11 hour trip on the train Saturday, 7 or so hours on a plane should be a piece of cake. Although I do have a sneaking suspicion that I will be in the middle seat--ew. Oh well!

I am taking the computer with me and will try to blog and upload pics as often as possible! I will miss you all!! (All 4 of my blog readers! HA!)

Movies Galore

2008-05-15T09:35:00.004-04:00

NEXT UP!

I found this movie apropos since I will be in the beautiful city of Bruges next week.

Everest Again

2008-05-14T12:23:00.002-04:00

Storm Over Everest lived up to all its hype, for me anyway. I thoroughly enjoyed the breathtaking views from the summit and all around the mountain. I think some of my friends with whom I watched it were a little bored, and I can appreciate that. If I hadn't read Into Thin Air, I probably wouldn't have been nearly as interested or captivated. The filming was spectacular and the heroism of the people on the mountain at that time never ceases to amaze and inspire me.

Our Lady of Fatima

2008-05-13T09:30:00.000-04:00

Today is the Feast of Our Lady of Fatima.

“Throughout history there have been supernatural apparitions and signs which go to the heart of human events and which, to the surprise of believers and non-believers alike, play their part in the unfolding of history. These manifestations can never contradict the content of faith, and must therefore have their focus in the core of Christ's proclamation: the Father's love which leads men and women to conversion and bestows the grace required to abandon oneself to him with filial devotion. This too is the message of Fatima which, with its urgent call to conversion and penance, draws us to the heart of the Gospel” (The Message of Fatima, Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith, June 26, 2000)."

Feeding the Addiction

2008-05-13T08:29:00.003-04:00

Michael Pollan's bestseller "The Omnivore's Dilemma" sparked a national conversation about the way we see food, where our meals really come from. Although I've not yet read it, Kili raved about it. I've got way too many books on my "I want to read" list, and I'm currently reading three ("Eiger Dreams" by Jon Krakauer, "Hindu God Christian God" by Francis Clooney, and "Letters to a Young Catholic" by George Wiegel.) BUT--I couldn't pass up the newest book by Michael Pollan, "In Defense of Food," which expands on his ideas in "The Omnivore's Dilemma" about what to eat from the perspective of health. His mantra is simple: "Eat Food. Not too much, mostly plants."

You know, a lot of women splurge on shoes or handbags or jewelry--my vice is definitely books! I've got to stop buying books! But books never go out of style, you can never really grow out of them (with a few exceptions), and you can't lose yourself in a good necklace.

EVEREST!

2008-05-13T08:09:00.001-04:00

The day has finally come!!! Storm Over Everest is on tonight--PBS, 9pm--DON'T MISS IT!

Changes...

2008-05-12T12:36:00.003-04:00

This time last year when I thought I was going to be moving on to something new and different, I didn't feel any different. This year contrasts that significantly as it seems like there are a million changes happening all around me, and I have been touched by them all. I have friends who have graduated, who are relocating, who are purchasing first-time homes, who are traveling abroad, who are starting new and fascinating programs, and others that are changing in smaller ways, but still morphing nonetheless.

I actually have faith and confidence this time that this is what I am supposed to be doing...it's time for me to dig up my firmly planted roots and move ahead. I've become too complacent here. Life is too easy here. I need to be challenged, I need to feel motivated again. I'm still undecided as to when I will go, but it will probably be sooner than later.

Of course, parts of me are sad and will miss this place I've called home for 9 years tremendously. However, I think I will only figure out what I am supposed to do and who I am supposed to be, by leaving Columbia behind. Things will work out however they are supposed to. I have faith in that.

Travel

2008-05-09T12:51:00.003-04:00

One of my favorite things to do is travel. I love seeing new things, tasting new exotic flavors, and experiencing moments of frustration followed by incomparable joy. I was looking around the NY Times' Travel section today and noticed that San Juan, PR is one of their most recommended travel spots. My visit there last June with my bros was an experience: not necessarily good or bad, but it was what it was. The company was great, some of the beaches were gorgeous, and one night in particular did we create lasting memories.

It was our final night in PR, and we decided to go to Old San Juan for dinner and to see the old fort, Castillo San Felipe del Morro. We got there too late to go inside, however the sun was just setting and children were still flying their kites on the massive lawn. We balanced on a ridiculously high wall, with one of my bros constantly threatening to throw me off, took pictures and enjoyed our last night in the old city.

It's a memory I recall when I am sad or just feeling nostalgic. It will always be one of my favorite memories, until I have no more.

At the Top of the World

2008-05-09T12:44:00.002-04:00

Olympic torch reaches summit of Everest! Read the story here.

Enlightenment and Agape

2008-05-09T10:02:00.004-04:00

Doing a little research here and there on my own, I came across the website of a BC Philosophy professor, Peter Kreeft, who is Catholic and has written several (like 25 or so) books on various topics. He is conservative, orthodox, charismatic and has a writing style that is scholarly, yet not elitist, but accessible. He had written an article discussing the fundamental differences (and few similarities) between Hinduism and Christianity which I'd read before, but enjoyed revisiting.

One of the things I was having difficulty wrapping my mind around was the concept of enlightenment. I understand it from the yogi point of view, but was having trouble really understanding what it means from a Christian p.o.v. I asked a dear friend and though his explanation was perfectly sound, I still didn't "get it." That's not his fault, it's mine. However, in reading the article today, I think I finally understand what he was trying to say:

"Thus the two essential points of Christianity--sin and salvation--are both
missing in the East. If there is no sin, no salvation is needed, only
enlightenment. We need not to be born again; rather, we must merely wake
up to our innate divinity. If I am part of God, I can never really be
alienated from God by sin."

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Another fascniating, well-written article on the website concerns love and the different types of this misused word. Agape, being the love that Jesus showed and taught, is what we are all called to show and teach even though it's the hardest thing in the world to do (at times). In my own life, most recently, I've had to distinguish between agape and feelings of love. In agape, we give ourselves away selflessly and receive unestimable rewards. Peter Kreeft uses the metaphor "...it's like a ball in a game of catch: throw it and it will come back to you; hold on to it and that ends the game." That seems perfectly right at this time in my life.

Finding God in India and Here

2008-05-08T13:14:00.002-04:00

I just read an interesting article by Francis Clooney, SJ. It is a little outdated (written in 1996 while he was still on faculty at Boston College) but overall it's fairly interesting and provided me with a few things to think about. The article is primarily about his journey as a Jesuit in Kathmandu, Nepal as well as Madras, India and how he developed this passion and inexahustable curiousity in comparative theology. A few of my favorite ideas presented that I think will help me ponder where I want to go, what I want to study and how I should be thinking of things:

What do these comparative and interreligious questions mean for how I live my life? Where do I find Jesus, how do I live openly, attentively, aware?
If I am open to how learned relgious people from far away and long ago rethought the idea of the divine, it can perhaps provide me with a new vantage point to see my own tradition in a new way.
How do I understand, get involved see th eworld and God through someone else's tradtion while recollecting my own identity?
I am interested in entering a new conversation while keeping old commitments, meeting in new ways the God who has already become known to me.
How can God teach me? How can God reach me?
I must seek God as He dwells outside the boundaries of my own tradition because He is greater than anything I can understand or imagine.
Keep my ears open--for if I can listen, I can see. That is the foundation of dialogue.

I hope to expand myself in new ways, challenge myself to the point of almost giving up, and finding my place among all the chaos in this world. I hope to be open to the possibilities which I encounter, and do so with a smidgen of grace.

Enthusiastic Anticipation

2008-05-08T09:48:00.002-04:00

Enthusiasm can color your thoughts, actions, and choices, prompting you to approach your endeavors with an unflappable and joyful determination. Whether you are playing with loved ones or working on a shared project with colleagues, you’ll likely sense that there is promise in your plans and that your efforts will eventually be met with success. This optimism can be intensely encouraging, carrying you forward even when failure looms large on the horizon or you have reached an impasse in your progress. If you stand strong and choose not to shy away from the challenges associated with your efforts today, you may discover that there is little that can prevent you from realizing the goals you have set for yourself.

When we feel enthusiastic about the endeavors in which we participate, we are more apt to do all we can or what is required of us to ensure that our efforts are met with success. Enthusiasm breeds eagerness, providing a foundation for our dedication when we aim for challenging goals or want to test the limits of our mental and physical capabilities. Setbacks cannot trump the excitement and exhilaration we feel when taking part in the activities we deem promising. Our devotion never wavers and our focus is consistently trained on the object of our desires, ensuring that we concentrate on achieving victory by whatever means necessary rather than on all that might go wrong. The optimism you feel today when engaging in pursuits you enjoy will help you make all of your wishes come true.

Veggie Tales

2008-05-07T09:51:00.002-04:00

I'm on one of my latest bits of ahimsa, or non-harming, and have given up meat for the time being. I have a tendency to give up meat for awhile and then abandon it and return to my carnivorous ways. I've been reading some interesting stuff about the practice of ahimsa and the philosophy behind it, and it's something I believe in and feel I should participate in more fully.

When thinking about it, it IS unacceptable how much of our livestock is treated and eventually killed purely for our meat-eating enjoyment. I know I have much to learn on the subject and still need help in my discipline, but the main thing is to begin. Isn't learning to pay attention and to reject the unacceptable parts of life what our Christian discipline is about?

Return to Peace

2008-05-01T12:09:00.004-04:00

I have been extremely slack in my yoga practice as of late. It's not that I don't want to go or think it won't benefit me, it's just that I haven't made the effort to get there. I don't know why or what is holding me back, but today I have resolved to get back to the studio I love so much. I think it will help me, not only physically but will also give me a chance to slow down, connect with the breath and clear my mind. (It will also help this incredibly sore rhomboid muscle I pulled playing racquetball!)

Tonight, I am going to the Level 2 class at City Yoga--I promise!

NEW BABY!!

2008-04-30T16:01:00.002-04:00

J & S had their baby boy, April 10 and I just received a link to some pictures. Jack is one adorable baby--you MUST check out the link: Baby B

CONGRATS!

2008-04-30T10:16:00.002-04:00

My friend's wife participated in the Boston Marathon a few weekends ago and finished with an impressive time of 3:59:20--that's a pace of 9:08! GO STEPH!!

Gimmelwald

2008-04-30T10:04:00.002-04:00

I've been given the task of planning the Switzerland part of our vacation--meaning I get to choose the towns, villages, hotels, etc. we stay in! I'm excited to plan it but a little nervous because I really want everyone to have a great time. One of the stops on our Swiss trip will definitely be the small village of Gimmelwald, about an hour south of Lucerne, to see the Eiger. It's accessible via train and is so completely charming that I'm falling in love with it simply through the pictures!

Decisions and The Inability to Make Them

2008-04-29T10:48:00.002-04:00

My horoscope according to Yahoo today:
Being focused on achieving a goal is important in life, but is your current goal really attainable? Reassess your current hopes for the future and make sure than none of them are too unrealistic. Yes, you have to challenge yourself and push yourself to do better, but at a certain point you could be setting yourself up for failure. Pull back a little. Instead of climbing that mountain today, how about you just ask yourself to get to the second highest peak? You can tackle the highest one later.
It's funny because I don't really know what my hopes for the future are, so how can I reassess them? And I definitely don't want to set myself up for failure, so I guess I need to kick my butt in gear and make some decisions!
I receive another horoscope from Daily Om and today's was titled "Ending Indecisiveness." Well, isn't that appropriate?? I understand that the root of indecisiveness is a lack of confidence that causes me to second-guess myself until I begin to feel that my judgment is no longer sound. I need to step back and attempt to regain some clairty and the ability to rationally analyze the situation before determining the superior option. Key word in that sentence is "rationally." I tend to think with my heart, which in some instances is perfect and good, but other times it can lead me down a very unfortunate path.
I hope to use this as a catalyst for prayer and meditation to really discover where I want to go, what I want to do, how I want to live.

Leonardo's Notebook By Mattheus Mei: Check It!#links

2008-04-27T20:00:00.000-04:00

Check out the new YACs in Columbia over at Mattheus Mei's blog and come out and join us on Wednesday, June 4!

Leonardo's Notebook By Mattheus Mei: Check It!#links

storypeople again

2008-04-23T08:40:00.000-04:00

"Tied together by stuff too difficult to explain to someone new"

storypeople

2008-04-17T09:33:00.001-04:00

"thinks about moving to someplace else where everything is different enough to be fun again."

Walking Away

2008-04-15T08:16:00.004-04:00

One of my favorite memories of the summer after my sophomore year of college is living with one of my best friends in the world. We had this funky little apartment we subletted with another girl (HAMP!) and then eventually moved into a little house just outside of Five Points. At that time, we discovered the joy of Ben Harper's Live From Mars album and there's one particular song on there that resonates with me, especially today.

Last night was one of the worst nights I've had in a very, very long time. The song from Live From Mars is "Walk Away" and the lyrics describe everything perfectly:

Oh no, Here comes that sun again

that means another day without you my friend.

And it hurts me to look into the mirror at myself

And it hurts even more to have to be with somebody else

And it's so hard to do

And so easy to say

But sometimes, sometimes you have to walk away.

Walk away.

With so many people to love in my life

Tell me, why do I worry about one

But you put the happy in my ness

You put the good times into my fun

And it's so hard to do

And so easy to say

But sometimes, sometimes you have to walk away.

Walk away--and head for the door.

We've tried the goodbye so many days

We walk in the same direction so that we could never stray

They say if you love somebody

Then you have got to set them free

But I would rather be locked to you

Than live in this pain and misery.

They say time will make this go away

But its time that is taking my tomorrows and

turned them into yesterdays

And once again that rising sun is dropping on down

And once again, you my friend are nowhere to be found

And it's so hard to do

And so easy to say

But sometimes, sometimes you have to walk away.

Walk away.

Turn and head for the door...

Germany Here I Come!

2008-04-10T00:16:00.002-04:00

So Nauru and I bought our tickets today to Europe!!! We're flying directly from Washington, DC to Frankfurt, Germany. Always wanting to see Germany, I'm so excited! From there, we're headed most likely to Brussels and then south to Zurich and then Lucern. He's not forgotten my request to see the Eiger, so we'll have to work that in somehow. I am so excited!!

Part of this adventure is getting to DC. Normally, I would fly, but in checking the flights, they are only about $100 less than our flight to Europe--how crazy is that!?! So, I am going to take the train from Columbia to DC. It's an 11 hour trip, but having talked to a few people, they say it's not so bad. You can get up and walk around, head to the dining car, etc. I think it will be fun. I'll arrive at Union Station on Saturday afternoon and spend the next two nights in DC before departing for Germany. One down side to the train ride--I have to be at the station at 3:30 A.M. Not fun--but that's okay.

I simply cannot wait! I love traveling and being with someone will be an experience I've not had in quite awhile. Last time I had companions was last June in Puerto Rico! This will definitely be different and I am ecstatic. I feel so lucky to have this opportunity--especially with all the "c" stuff.

I feel so fortunate, so undeserving at times, for all the blessings in my life. I've been dealt my fair share of hardships and struggles, but I cannot waste my time focusing on that. I am so thankful and indebted for the wondrous things that have come my way. It's almost as if this trip comes as a celebration of the past 18 months--a way to remember what happened, but also to joyfully anticipate the new chapter of my life.

Daily Horoscope

2008-04-03T09:46:00.001-04:00

Your emotions may be a bit vulnerable today, dear Pisces, and it may be hard to find shelter from the storm. Your umbrella is feeling a bit too drafty and water seems to be leaking in from the top. Comfort yourself by coming to center and enjoying a quiet evening at home. Don't let other people's unsolved problems infect your space. Differentiate between issues that have to do with you and issues that are simply beyond your control.

Now, to heed that advice!

What Keeps Me Goin...

2008-04-02T12:00:00.002-04:00

As noted before, I do not enjoy running yet I am addicted to it. Occasionally (okay, more than occasionally) I lose motivation and need to reinvigorate myself. On that note, I had a very generous secret admirer let me run wild (no pun intended) on the Adidas website. I have some delightful treats coming my way in 4-7 business days including a pair of new shorts, new capri running pants, two tanks and two awesome sports bras. Oh I am excited! And I finally broke down and purchased the arm band for my iPod. Now I don't have to hold it awkwardly or wear weird looking (read, yoga) pants that have pockets.
Kili and I are headed to the river this Saturday morning to participate in the pre-Heart and Sole's 5K. No cost, no times recorded--just a look ahead at the route and the opportunity to run 3 miles. Should be a good time, even if it is at 7:00 in the morning. Ugh.

INSPIRATION

2008-03-29T23:56:00.003-04:00

For our upcoming climb...

"Unusual travel suggestions are dancing lessons from God." ~Kurt Vonnegut

Reunited

2008-03-29T23:43:00.005-04:00

A friend with whom I work, J, has a son who has been in Iraq for a little over eight months. They were in frequent contact with one another, except for the last month when she hadn't heard anything from him.

Then, on Friday, he showed up at work! She was so happy and relieved to see him, it was such a sweet reunion. He's only home for eighteen days and will return to Iraq, but I know they are both thrilled to be home and I hope they savor the next two and a half weeks.

George Mallory

2008-03-26T08:34:00.002-04:00

I had a little extra time this morning at work, so I was perusing various Everest websites. One I found is really interesting with lots of facts and statistics...like, did you know that most Everest deaths are caused by avalanche as opposed to falling off? I didn't! Anyway, I found another good quote, this one from George Mallory (who attempted Everest and disappeared on the mountain in 1924) about why people climb it.

"The first question which you will ask and which I must try to answer is this, 'What is the use of climbing Mount Everest ?' and my answer must at once be, 'It is no use'. There is not the slightest prospect of any gain whatsoever. Oh, we may learn a little about the behavior of the human body at high altitudes, and possibly medical men may turn our observation to some account for the purposes of aviation. But otherwise nothing will come of it. We shall not bring back a single bit of gold or silver, not a gem, nor any coal or iron. We shall not find a single foot of earth that can be planted with crops to raise food. It's no use. So, if you cannot understand that there is something in man which responds to the challenge of this mountain and goes out to meet it, that the struggle is the struggle of life itself upward and forever upward, then you won't see why we go. What we get from this adventure is just sheer joy. And joy is, after all, the end of life. We do not live to eat and make money. We eat and make money to be able to enjoy life. That is what life means and what life is for."

Algeria Pics

2008-03-25T08:53:00.002-04:00

Nauru just uploaded some really great photos from the trip to Algeria--check them out!

Great Quote

2008-03-19T12:07:00.002-04:00

"...you don't learn anything from success. If you want to learn something about yourself, you undergo hard times or you fail because that teaches you something. And maybe you don't want to find out what it is you are going to discover. You hope that if you're placed in a moment that is very difficult like that, that what you are going to find is that you will be an honorable person, and you'll do the right thing and you'll have some measure of grace and courage, but you don't know the answer to that."

Space to Fill

2008-03-19T11:38:00.002-04:00

I moved several pieces of furniture around my house this past weekend, transporting one of my bookshelves to the living room. While the one bookshelf already in there is completely filled with glorious books, this one looks a tad sparse. Not needing much encouragement really, I have decided to indulge and purchase a few more books for this sad little bookshelf that desperately needs books on it to make it happy. A few of my choices:

Left For Dead: My Journey Home from Everest by Beck Weathers

High Exposure: An Enduring Passion for Everest by David Breashears

Priestblock 25487: A Memoir of Dachau by Jean Bernard

This Our Exile: A Spiritual Journey With the Refugees of East Africa by James Martin, SJ

Making All Things New by Henri Nouwen

An Infinity of Little Hours: Five Young Men and Their Trial of Faith in the Western World's Most Austere Monastic Order by Nancy Maguire

The Heart of Yoga: Developing a Personal Practice by T.K.V. Desikachar

Storm Over Everest

2008-03-18T13:26:00.004-04:00

Storm Over Everest will air on PBS, Tuesday, May 13, 2008 from 9:00 p.m.-11:00 p.m. This is the story of David Breashears who was on Mt. Everest during the 1996 expedition leading an IMAX crew. This documentary takes Breashears back to the summit of Everest as he conquers more than the physical demands of the climb, and remembers the rescue efforts (and failures) from 12 years ago.

A line from Beck Weathers, who was rescued on that expedition, "Everybody always says that the definition of character is what you do when nobody is looking. And when we were up there, we didn't think anybody was looking. And so everybody did pretty much what the inner person, the real them, the exposed them would do ... I got to witness those acts--the good ones, the bad ones. And the individuals that came through, that did well, that were selfless ... Every one of them to me is a hero ..."

I CAN'T WAIT!

Went to the Green

2008-03-17T11:52:00.002-04:00

5K run went rather well on Saturday. I am happy to report that I didn't stop and finished in under my goal time, so I am rather thrilled. The results have been posted and I finished 625th out of 1500 with a time of 27:37 (that's a pace of 8:54 per mile).

I do not care for running. I don't like my lungs feeling like they're about to explode or my legs feeling as if they are going to give out at any moment. However, there's something exhilarating about it which challenges me to really push my limits and flirt with my edge. The minute I finish a race (and debate whether or not I am going to throw up) I say "I am NEVER doing this again." But shortly thereafter, once my legs have recovered and I see my results, I am inspired to do it again--to beat my best time, to be a part of the mayhem again. On that note, I have convinced Kili to run with me in the Fidler 5K on Saturday, April 19 benefitting the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. Ma and Pa will be out of town and unable to run (boo!) and I am still waiting to hear back from one other person. If anyone else is interested--join us!

So now I have another race to "train" for and a new pace time to beat. My new goal: 8:00 miles.

Swiss Alps

2008-03-14T12:36:00.005-04:00

My upcoming trip to Switzerland in May will now be even better than I had originally ever dreamed. Yes, because I will be going with Nauru (thanks Pa!) and it will be wonderful, exciting, and fun...but also because we're going to make a trip to the Eiger!

The Eiger is located in the Bernese Alps, rising 13,025 feet. The Nordwand (North Wall) is the spectacular north face of the Eiger and is one of the six great north faces of the Alps. It was first climbed in 1938 by a German-Austrian group. Subsequently the face has been climbed many times, and today is regarded as a formidable challenge more because of the increased rockfall and diminishing ice-fields than because of its technical difficulties, which are not at the highest level of difficulty in modern alpinism. Since 1935, sixty climbers have died attempting the north face, earning it the German nickname, Mordwand, or "murder wall", a play on the face's real German name Nordwand.

The Jungfraubahn railway runs in a tunnel inside the Eiger, and two internal stations provide easy access to viewing-windows in the mountainside. The railway terminates at Jungfraujoch, the highest railway station in Europe, located in the col between the Monch and the Jungfrau.

It is located approximately 50 km from Lucerne and Nauru is happy to visit the mountain for a day. With my newfound appreciation and admiration for mountain climbing and trekking, I am so incredibly excited to see such a great (in)famous mountain! No, I will not be attempting any sort of ascent, but I will definitely take the train up to almost 11,000 feet! How incredible!

Decisions Part 2

2008-03-14T12:20:00.002-04:00

So, after much thought and prayer, I have decided to turn down the job offered to me. I think it's in my best interest for many reasons to continue what I am doing now. It would have been a major change in lifestyle and other factors didn't make it all that appealing.

Actually, in turning it down, I received a "project" from my boss that is incredibly exciting and will definitely be challenging. He will be traveling to a university in Michigan this summer in hopes to land the bid for Sodexho to take over the food service contract. I will be primarily responsible for gathering statistics, conducting research and ultimately writing the proposal for him. Very cool. I feel that this opportunity can definitely be beneficial to my career development and I will gain new skills that should surely be marketable one day.

So it's been an interesting day, needless to say. This afternoon (depending on the weather) I will most likely go for a run, take a nap or paint the bedroom. Tonight Kili and I are going to see Sweeney Todd at the Workshop Theatre, which I am very much looking forward to. Then it's early to bed because the Get to the Green 5K is tomorrow bright and early! Pa isn't feeling well and may not be running. :( But it will be great having him and Mom there to cheer us on!

Decisions

2008-03-11T13:08:00.003-04:00

As a good friend once told me, I must start this story out right--"So there I was..."

Minding my own business at the front desk, with my mood matching the weather, the morning had started out like a typical Tuesday.

And then I was offered a new job. I don't want to give out a lot of details yet, but it's definitely something to think and pray about. There are numerous pros and cons associated with this opportunity and it's the first time in a long time that I've been cognizant of the clear fork in the road.

What will it mean to take it? pass it up? Which decision will best serve me? What is the responsible "adult" decision to make? So instead of a relaxing evening at home with nothing more than what to have for dinner on my mind, I will begin discerning.

Not Pointing North

2008-03-10T09:38:00.008-04:00

So I was feeling pretty good after a 3 mile run yesterday, so I decided to go home and do a little yoga. I found a series of poses in an old Yoga Journal that I wanted to try, and was a little bit too ambitious. I should have known from the title, "Hip Parade" that these poses would be quite challenging. However, I tend to live in a somewhat delusional state when it comes to yoga poses. The models always make it look so easy and trick me into thinking my body can do what theirs can.

My hips are incredibly tight and I really should have been prepared for the chaos that would ensue when attempting these poses. However, being optimistic and a little stupid, I set out on my hip opening journey. I began my "practice" with some sun salutations, triangle pose, side angle pose, pigeon pose, lizard pose and a few others. I was working my way up to Parivrtta Surya Yantrasana (aka Compass Pose). I was doing quite well (especially for not having done any yoga in over two months) and was confident I would be able to manipulate my body into this really awesome posture.

I read over the little snippet of how to get into the pose, wrapped my mind around it, and then set out to try it. So I took a few breaths and tried to center myself and focus on the task at hand. Needless to say, it did not go well. I felt like a pretzel that had been mangled in the twisting machine--it was not a pretty sight. I learned that not only are my hips way too tight for this particular posture, my sides and hamstrings aren't quite stretched out enough either. The guy in the picture below looks elegant and beautiful. I looked wretched and hysterical. All I could do was laugh and resign myself to the fact that it's going to take a lot of practice and a lot more stretching to turn myself into a compass!

Anusara Yoga in Columbia

2008-03-06T08:57:00.002-05:00

John Friend, the founder of Anusara Yoga, is in Columbia this weekend for a workshop. Hosted by none other than the wonderful, beautiful and inspiring Stacey Millner-Collins, John Friend took time out from his busy teacher training workshop to speak with The State about his own practice, philosophy and of course, his favorite yoga pose. The full article can be viewed here.

I was accepted into the teacher training program, but a few things have come up which aren't allowing me to participate. It's disappointing, but I try to focus on getting better first and also realizing that there will be other opportunities to do this. There's plenty of time left...

Everest Attempt

2008-03-04T08:17:00.001-05:00

Min Bahadur Sherchan, 77 years old plans to attempt to summit Everest in Spring 2008 from the south side. Min Bahadur Sherchan would become the oldest summiter of Everest if successful. He has a team of 12 strong Nepal Sherpas to assist him. He comes from Bhurung Tatopani Village Development Committee-9 of Myagdi District in Western Development Region in Nepal. he has climbed Mount Naya-khanga Peak (5844m) in Nepal on Sep.11, 2006. Mr. Sherchan is ex-army who has the dream of summiting Mt. Everest.

Runnin' Again

2008-03-02T18:53:00.002-05:00

Mom reminded me today to register for the Get to the Green 5K run taking place on Saturday, March 15! Guess that means I need to start running a little bit more, eh? :-)

But now I am registered and "guaranteed" a t-shirt and free ticket to the afternoon's festivities in 5 Points. I must ask myself, is it really worth running three miles for a t-shirt and a ticket to an event which I cannot partake in the imbibing? Probably not. However, it is TOTALLY worth it to see Dad and Kili dressed up as leprechauns. To see that, I'd even run 5 miles again.

Buddhist Nun to Speak at USC

2008-02-28T18:51:00.002-05:00

Special Event!
Finding Inner Peace
with Kadampa Buddhist Nun Gen-la Kelsang Dekyong
Tuesday, March 4th, 7pm-8:15pm, at USC/Rutledge Chapel
Reception to follow in the Gresette Room/Harper College

In this busy world, our experiences of happiness are fleeting and short-lived, while inner peace eludes us completely. Our negative states of mind, such as uncontrolled desire and anger, create endless problems for ourselves and others, and prevent us from fulfilling our deepest wishes.

Gen-la Dekyong will teach, as presented in Buddhism, how we can find an authentic, longlasting inner peace through meditation practice. If our mind is peaceful, we will be free from worries and mental discomfort and so we will experience true happiness.

Gen-la Kelsang Dekyong is the National Spiritual Director of the New Kadampa Tradition in the United States and Resident Teacher at the Kadampa Meditation Center California. She has been practicing Buddhism and studying closely with her Spiritual Guide, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso for many years. Gen-la Dekyong is a powerful and inspiring teacher who is well-loved for her good heart and clear, practical teachings.

Sponsors
This event is possible thanks to the generosity of the USC Department of Religious Studies, the Department of Anthropology, the Department of Philosophy, the Women's Studies Program and the Ganden Mahayana Buddhist Center.

"The purpose of meditation is to make our mind calm and peaceful. If our mind is peaceful we shall be free from worries and mental discomfort, and we shall experience true happiness; but if our mind is not peaceful we shall find it very difficult to be happy, even if we are living in the very best conditions. If we train in meditation our mind will gradually become more and more peaceful, and we shall experience a purer and purer form of happiness. Eventuallywe shall be happy all of the time, even in the most difficult circumstances."
-Ven Geshe Kelsang Gyatso

Weekend Excursion

2008-02-22T19:27:00.003-05:00

I'm leaving shortly to enjoy a nice weekend away from Columbia. I think I often neglect important relationships and I am thrilled to have this opportunity to nurture this one. It's been so long since I've been able to sit and chat with "Running Man," and I am very much looking forward to it.

This miniature sabbatical will enable me loads of time to think and pray. I've got a lot to ponder: future happenings, current relationships & events, and maybe even try to make sense of some of the past. It will be good to unplug and write more, and talk to one of the people in this world who seems to really 'get' me.

Sins Galore!

2008-02-20T12:59:00.003-05:00

An article that caught my eye from Forbes this morning.

America's Most Sinful Cities

Based on the 7 deadly sins, cities were ranked according to various statistics. The closest one to Columbia is the #2 ranked city for Envy: Charlotte, NC. This was determined due to the high number of petty larceny in the past. Very interesting, indeed.

Cool Stuff

2008-02-15T09:33:00.001-05:00

Scientists Scan Striking Nanoscale Images

For the first time, late last year, a team of British scientists filmed the nanoscale interaction of an attacking virus with an enzyme and a DNA strand in real time.

Maybe this will help in cancer research and development!

Zumba Update

2008-02-12T19:29:00.000-05:00

We had a blast! Although our heart rate never really got too high, we had a lot of fun and I definitely smiled A LOT. Especially when we had to some sort of samba and I looked (and felt) more like I was in a hoedown or something. We shimmied and moved our hips a whole heck of a lot, which is ALWAYS a good source of laughter.

So overall, I had fun even though it wasn't a very demanding workout. Tomorrow I start my conquest of the jump rope AND start running again. Mags and I have decided to participate in the Get to the Green 5K on March 15.

I think having this challenge will motivate me in several ways and will only benefit me. Don't worry--I will take it easy when I need to.

ZUMBA

2008-02-12T07:59:00.000-05:00

This afternoon, Mags and I are off to try something new: a Zumba class. It's a Latin-inspired aerobic workout...should be interesting to say the least! I'm a little nervous about the coordination necessary to keep up, but at least I'll get a good laugh out of it--and give someone a good laugh too! I'll update after class...

NO SOUP FOR YOU!

2008-02-11T18:02:00.000-05:00

I had a soup this evening that transported me halfway across the world. "Mom's" Mulligatawny soup was quite delicious, with exploding tastes and aromas of the Subcontinent. With a little hummus and pita, it felt as if I was back at the Coconut Lagoon--enjoying the air, the smells, the experience and the friendships.

One might recall Mulligatawny from the Seinfeld episode with the Soup Nazi. If his tasted anything like "Mom's," well, I'd take the chance at his place too.

Bishops vs. Vagina Monologues

2008-02-11T11:14:00.000-05:00

An interesting article forwarded to me by SPH.

Bishops Shun Notre Dame

Here are some highlights:
*The Committee on Doctrine is chaired by Bishop William Lori ofBridgeport and includes five other bishops from, respectively, SanAntonio,Washington, Toledo, Paterson, and Oakland. Cardinal George of Chicagois aconsultant to the Committee, as is Dr. John Cavadini, Chair of theNotre DameTheology Department and one of the conference's organizers.

*The Committee's seminar was to be held on campus on February11-13, but when the bishops learned that the Vagina Monologues might be performed, they asked Father Jenkins to bar it. According to a Committee source, the bishops "did everything they possibly could to come to an agreementwith the administration." Father Jenkins nevertheless turned them down.

*The bishops thereupon moved the conference to a convent in Mishawaka and decided to stay at the Inn at St. Mary's rather than the Morris Inn. (St. Mary's does not allow the Vagina Monologues.) Cardinal William Levada, theVatican Prefect of the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith and the keynote speaker, was also "in the loop," according to a Committee source.

*Bishop John M. D'Arcy, whose diocese includes Notre Dame, provided confirmation. He said, "Because of the likelihood of the presentation of . . .'The Vagina Monologues' . . . the bishops made a collective decision to move the seminar off campus."

*In a terse statement, the University said that it had "worked collaboratively with the bishops to move the conference" and that it is "sure that our partnerships will continue in the future." Father Jenkins declined to be interviewed. This episode evidences both the degree to which secularization has overtaken the University and also a most troubling estrangement of University and Church.

Tag--I'm It (and a little late)

2008-02-10T09:50:00.001-05:00

I was tagged awhile ago and have just remembered to participate. So here goes:
* Pick up the nearest book of 123 pages or more.
* Find Page 123.
* Find the first 5 sentences.
* Post the next 3 sentences.

Book: Touching the Void by Joe Simpson

Excerpt: "It took some experimentation before I had found the best method of crawling. The soft wet snow made it hard to slide. I quickly realized that facing forwards on one knee and both arms was too painful."

This is describing Joe's struggle to make it back to base camp after falling in a crevasse and breaking his leg--oh, and being abandoned by his friend and climbing companion.

Happiness

2008-02-09T15:40:00.001-05:00

You know when you've had a rough week and some of the smallest, simplest things make you feel so much better? Well, I had one of those rough weeks and then yesterday I came home to two dozen roses at my door!

Then today, I decided to go to Five Points and just window shop. The shoe store, Sophie, was having an amazing sale so I decided to just take a peek. I found the most adorable pair of shoes that were 75% off! They were way too cute to pass up.

I know that true happiness cannot be found in roses that will eventually die or shoes that fit perfectly, but for the moment I feel incredibly happy and at peace with everything going on. And at a time like this, that is simpy precious.